What is there to life?

I'm bored.

I have no time to draw, online time is limited, so my digital coloring time is limited too, everytime I wanna draw I feel sleepy and go off to sleep.

Homework, procrastinate now, and panic later style.

Fandoms, so long since I've last touched on them. Oh anime-tachi, I want the time to watch you all so badly. Especially Ao no Exorcist, I can't wait to watch that.

Piano, hoping really really hard that I'll be able to pass my Grade 8 exam later next month because I hardly have time to practise and parents are pressuring me to pass, but passing is really hard for grade 8 (or so I heard), it'd be a miracle if I did. And I don't mind if this miracle happens.

Why can't there be more hours in a day to do things? ;A;

Piano Duet - Vamps [Lyrics]

Piano Duet - Vamps

ねぇ、こんな風に思いながら
よく似た手を重ねたのかな
鍵盤の上　紡ぎ合ってゆくメロディー

あぁ、こんなにも愛してくれていてなんて
気づかないで　あまりにも　遅すぎた

ねえ、雨の日は　寄り添うように
ピアノを弾いて　いつも歌ったよね
音譜が舞って　まるで今日と同じように

貴方が今いてくれたなら
きっと素直に言えるのに
天国へは届かないよ

ねぇ、いつの日か貴方に帰る
その日なら　会えたなら　言えるかな
あぁ、こんなにも愛してくれていたなんて
気づかないで　言えなかったけど

ありがとう

Translation

Hey, as I think like this

I wonder if a hand similar to that one will cover mine

A melody spins itself above the keyboard

he same as they do today

Aah, I never really realized

How much you've loved me

I'm too late

Hey, it was a rainy day when you seemed to pull me in

You were playing the piano and always singing

The notes danced almost today

If you were with me now

Maybe I'd be able to tell you honestly but

I can't reach you in heaven

Hey, one of these days I'll return to you

When that day comes, if I can see, you, will I be able to tell you?

Ahh, I never realized how much you loved me

But I couldn't tell you

Thank you

Thank you

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"But I can't reach you in heaven, I couldn't tell you..."

In love with this song.

Source; Credit Harumi

Oh people beside me in the computer lab who are downloading Devil May Cry

I wish I could just squeal and jump up and fangirl with you guys and then we'd talk about Devil May Cry gameplay and we'd somehow become friends when you hear that I've played it too and we'll spend hours watching each other play DMC and more hours looking through my folder fro DMC fanart and we'll laugh at all the DMC jokes and we'd reference it in real life.

But we won't because me fangirling will scare the shit out of you guys and I have an image to keep.

Wish you guys could see this though because I'm so lonely that there isn't a single otaku here with me in college and there isn't any jrock/visual kei fan here. Life is so lonely sucks.

Jealous of you people

Everwhere I go everyone I meet seems to be living their dreams.

They teach because they like to teach.
They sing because they like to sing.
They dance because they like to dance.
They want to be dentists because they like teeth.
They want to be doctors because they think intestines are awesome.
They are photographers because they like to take pictures.
They want to be enginneers because building things are fun.

And they have all the love and support of their family members.

While me and a couple of people I know, want to draw because we love to draw.
We want to draw because we love to dream.

But we can't because apparently it won't support us and there is no market and it won't make us successful and we won't earn money.

So we just shrink back into a corner and draw and draw and sometimes when we have no time we neglect it completely and this guilt, this lonliness, this jealousy eats us up slowly on the inside as we watch you, the people who get to live your dream while for us it will forever be just one thing and nothing else. It will forever be a Dream. Out of reach.

Jealous of you, for being able to live your dream.

A cafe?

We went to this place called Moe D Cafe yesterday.

We actually went for Shabu Shabu for dinner, then went down to that place.

Waitressess were wearing sailorfuku and guys look like they were cosplaying Shizu-chan.

There were manga at the side too, its like a otaku cafe 8D

But not too happy bout the disco music, made it seem like a pub =3=

First time going to places like above, so was kinda excited. Will post more bout dinner that day after +0 has uploaded all the photos.

The day it rained so heavily

these things collapsed. It was supposed to be standing up btw.

This was on Thursday right outside the labs in college.

I didn't give up drawing

Its not really that I've stopped drawing, not that I've fully intergrated into college life.

Its just that now I reach home at about 7pm everyday, and after dinner and shower and stuff, its already 8 something. I go online to check my emails and do any unfinished homework, then by the time I feel like I could draw, it'd be time to go offline.

So I think it'll be traditional art lately, but by the time I reach my bed, I read a few library books I have to return, and by then I'm already sleepy.

In the end, I can only update my devart and stuff (and actually draw something complete) during the weekends.

I'm just doodling things not fit for display usually.

I'll never give up drawing, you should know that.