Valentines Day

"誇らしげにかざしてた　孤独と言うプライドは"

"Hokorashige nika zashiteta Kodoku to iu PURAIDO wa"

Pfft... Valentines Day. Its overrrated.

All day long people run around going "OMG~~ I need a date for V-DAy~~~"

Whats wrong with being single?

People always say that I look lonely, that I have to get a boyfriend.

So what?

Getting a boyfriend doesn't automatically mean that I won't be lonely. And especially if he doesn't understand me and stuff, it'll just be disaster.

Getting a boyfriend would just mean I get less time to fangirl. Especially at my age now, I NEED to fangirl most of the time. About Gazette. And Alice Nine. And I also realized that most guys don't like A9 and Gazette. So if boyfriend doesn't like them, I'll have to constantly defend them all the time. Which will mean I don't get to fangirl.

And boyfriends will not be there for you forever. What if he's not 'the one'? He'll just leave you, and then you'lll have to heal a broken heart. I will not rush to get a boyfriend.

And so, for now, until I find 'the one', I will live by the quote from the song, 'Miseinen' by Gazette, above, "I proudly hold up a kind of PRIDE called Lonliness".

Lonliness is a kind of PRIDE. Its not something to mope and cry over. Its also freedom. To do whatever I want.

I will uphold my pride. Until I can find someone who can accept me for who I am, fangirl, otaku and all.

And then, maybe....